I was overwhelmed with relief that I mattered.
A part of creation and eternity, I was flattered.
On a joyous path, grateful and aware I become.
Unaware of the looming layered demons to come.
Like shark teeth they stab and fight to the death.
The next vampire fang rises from the bloody bed.
Where is the grand finale to this depressing ordeal?
An end with my immortality intact is my appeal.
Cycling through the highs and lows of my chemistry.
Adverse times threaten another visit to the cemetery.
So long since the last high I yearn to feel in freedom.
Nothing knew in a well-travelled collapsing kingdom.
Mother is beginning to intensify the rumble of her curves.
Ready to give back what she has been too long served.
Pulsing to inevitably shake yet willing to shift for our sake.
Will we bend the mind in time for another path to take?
‘Till now was a persistent absence of crucial acceptance.
Wired to struggle, I couldn’t detect my self-deception.
Fear of missing my lack was a depth I care not visit.
Addiction dissolved – no emotional history to miss it.
A spark of passion to grasp new learning begins my dance.
Worried I will not identify and take my pending last chance.
Hold on with my attention. Give up the familiar distraction.
Muster the strength and will to enjoy taking all the action.
All paths are mine and my mind is refined to choose.
Tuning vibrations to love and walking with future shoes.
I am in a sublime trance upon new emotions to ignite.
I am dreaming of peace where there was never a fight.
Gold glitter marks the acceptance of my worth and freedom.
